When our childhood is interrupted by abuse, intimidation, manipulation, and other ills, we cannot react as adults to rejection and other life difficulties.
Something is missing
The end of the year is approaching, it has been almost 12 months of many experiences, news that has brought us panic, insecurity, sadness and innumerable emotions have been awakened to see how a virus has hit the whole world taking with it many lives, dividing families, stealing the peace of many hearts.
Perhaps many of us started this year with many expectations, plans, projects and dreams that could not be fulfilled. However, that does not mean that we will not be able to carry out those plans and dreams next year, or some day not too far away. What I am sure of is that we have to make an evaluation in our life, to see what things are still alive, and what things have already died and it is up to us for them to live again. For example, there are memories that bring us pain, and if we have them hidden and we avoid them without facing them, and without being convinced that they are only memories and they will harm us only if we allow them, it will not be easy to overcome them.
I remember how scared I felt every time I remembered something traumatic, an abusive situation that happened to me when I was just an 8-year-old girl, but one day I realized that I had grown up and that abuse would never happen to me again.Because now I can defend myself and from that day on that memory no longer scares me anymore because it was overcome. I only took what I learned from it, I no longer feel like a victim because I am not, the victims die in the event, I survived that and many other things thanks God.
When our childhood is interrupted by abuse, intimidation, manipulation and other evils, many times we cannot react as adults to rejection and other difficulties in life. For that reason it was difficult for me to react correctly to failures, betrayals, adverse circumstances and everyday things, because a part of my mind was childish, had not developed and reacted as a child. That girl who had never grown up and felt trapped in a woman’s body. I still had the same childhood fears, fear of sleeping alone, fear of speaking in public, fear about what they will say, and the list goes on.
There are fears that we have so hidden that we no longer know where we put them, in order to confront them and let them know that their time in our history is over. If we identify fears and traumas by name and show them to God he can heal us and set us free from each of them. There are things that perhaps died this year, but there are also things that are still alive, such as love, illusions, and the desire to see things change, that is hope! We must continue to nurture it so that next year we find ourselves stronger, whatever may come our way.
For this end of the year 2020, I invite you to search in your heart what it is that does not let you move forward , or what it is that you lack, because we all lack something. I want you to know that you are not alone, there is a God who loves you, thinks of you, and has good and not bad plans for your life, he can resurrect faith, hope, love, and everything that died during this and any previous year.
“and said, “Where have you laid him?” They said, “Lord, come and see.” Jesus wept. So the Jews were saying, “See how He loved him [as a close friend]!” But some of them said, “Could not this Man, who opened the blind man’s eyes, have kept this man from dying?” So Jesus, again deeply moved within [to the point of anger], approached the tomb. It was a cave, and a boulder was lying against it [to cover the entrance]. Jesus said, “Take away the stone.” Martha, the sister of the dead man, said to Him, “Lord, by this time there will be an offensive odor, for he has been dead four days! [It is hopeless!]” Jesus said to her, “Did I not say to you that if you believe [in Me], you will see the glory of God [the expression of His excellence]?” So they took away the stone. And Jesus raised His eyes [toward heaven] and said, “Father, I thank You that You have heard Me. I knew that You always hear Me and listen to Me; but I have said this because of the people standing around, so that they may believe that You have sent Me [and that You have made Me Your representative].” When He had said this, He shouted with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come out!” Out came the man who had been dead, his hands and feet tightly wrapped in burial cloths (linen strips), and with a [burial] cloth wrapped around his face. Jesus said to them, “Unwrap him and release him.””
John 11:34-44 AMP
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